hmmm??? :((

I’ve been feeling so down on myself these days. I wish I didn’t compare myself with others so often. I know that I am of average intelligence and looks and stuff, but I just feel that I have nothing special to offer; like I am not ‘good’ at anything. Sometimes surfing on the net makes me depressed since I read blogs and see post by people who do so many interesting things and I feel that my life is so boring compared to them. I wish I could make interesting things and think interesting thoughts and write well and remember stuff and and and…Actually what I really wish I could do was stop wishing and start being. I know that by just sitting here wishing I was things I will never become any of those things, but by just embracing the moment and living I will have the ability to become whatever it is that I want to be and I won’t even know it. Why is that just so difficult _:(